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我们都有自己不愿跟人分享的伤痛，所以只有选择隐藏、选择一个人承受、一个人流泪，一个人悲伤，然后，一个人慢慢蜕变，渐渐遗忘、变成回忆，不再过问。但那终究只是一个人的感觉，除了你的心跳、谁会明白你的故事里装了多少欢乐、又有多少悲伤？
有些记忆，注定无法抹去；就像有些人一样，注定无法替代……或许
尤其当你看到他的出现时，照片或当事人，都会牵起心中的涟漪，毫无起因、毫无防备，占据内心/思绪……



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夜深，万籁俱寂，戴上耳机，音乐在脑里徘徊着，看着手中的物理，明天考试了，最后四天。哦？~听到了几首较轻的音乐，放下了书，享受音乐的美妙……

一天过了~

so that is the result, damn it, did what i paid only worth for that? witnessing everyone enjoying their achievement yet only can be the one who congraz others, what kind of joke is this?!..........

WOW, STEADY A!~ steady a~ stea......dy? ya, at least i tried, but i dunno la, maybe not as what i thought will happen? haha.. so is time to focus on study...
well, tx, for the ans......? yea~

与心灵对话，说

当看到那页、那个空着的格子时，心都凉了一下，有种刺痛的感觉。曾经，很喜欢很喜欢你，就喜欢，想和你在一起。时间过了，看将你有了男朋友，听闻你们之间的感情，我懦弱的退缩。把自己隐蔽在心中灰暗的绝望角落，一度一蹶不振。时间过了，渐渐淡忘、渐渐看开了，把你当成是朋友，一直都只想做朋友。但，在你的感情结束后，也不知从何时开始，对你的那种好感又回来了，有股冲动想和你在一起，陪伴你……

我害怕，害怕向你说了我的感觉后你会排斥我，害怕朋友都不能做了，不想、不愿意！但又怕你在以后会随他人而去，成了他人世界的一部分。我，纠缠，无奈，一直在原地打转，毫无头绪下一步该怎样走，该往哪里走。现在我只能默默的你身旁，盼望着奇迹出现，或许？我的存在，在你眼里，我并不知道它的价值是多少，我只能期望我对你来说很重要、我希望能成为你生命中不可或缺的一部分，但愿能陪伴你终生。人家说，为什么你不尝试，没有试过都不懂结果是什么，还没尝试过别说不能。对，我也和自己说过类似的话，我也在问自己为什么不去尝试，对知己说如果不试一试就会后悔莫及，但就是拿不出勇气，没人能了解那种害怕失去的感觉，太强大了……

我只想说，我很喜欢你，很想成为你世界的一部分……
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他对我说了这一切，我安静的听了，无语，我也知道他很难受，很挣扎，但我无能为力。我只能说，加油。

压抑在心里的感觉不能释放，是折磨。惧怕的心把一切的胆量吞噬了；你永远不能理解，或许？爱在心里口难开，世人说的，我认……

你对我说。。。。

the thing that mean 'respect'

so who are you? oh ya, i nearly forget that you are the most powerful, intelligent, the greatest man in the world! and everyone had to obey of what you had said. come on, please la, just stop your wonderful imagination. don't you ever dream bout it. people help you to mop your room and you say her brainless. WOW, YOU SHOW LOT'S OF RESPECT, if she don't help you up will you ever go and clean you room, she helped you always just because that she know you are busy with your work and might be so tired to clean it. and she help you. yet, you say that she mop your floor and make all your thing mess up,and you get tempered. FUNNY....give part of your salary to parents isn't it a responsibility as a son? and you just give various type of excuse when they ask for it. you ask that why can't you use the money that you had earn, use some sense of a human being la. you spending your money like i drinking water,but when you come to the time to give money, you say that you want to save money. what kind of logic is this? 'your brain grow in the butt' that is what you said, to her. I RESPECT YOU!

1 month, passed

so it just came to the month of February. well, nothing very interesting or brilliant that happened. so i had been studying for one month? consider as tat la, although i did "absent" for bout 5 or 6 days~ i not PONTENG, just use my time for something that is more important ~^^ so one month passed like that, and none of us in school feels that we are taking SPM this year. still, playing around during the class -.- but don't know why, most of the teachers that teaching us are quite sakai also, playing with us in the class. anywhere, bout less than 10 months more for thr SPM, so still that sentence, all the best guys~

to someone i know,??

just now i read some proverb when i doing my bm essay, that is a sentence tat get my concern
'anger just like you burn your own house just to get away from the mouse, you are totally stupid'
you know what? that is what i wanna tell you for so long. just sometimes, i was wondering most of the time that why you just cant control your anger? i mean, isn't it there some other ways to solve something beside getting angry so fast?? well, no one will know your feeling neither than your parents, maybe? i admit that i din get use to know you very much, and i cant comment much bout your things, but what i want to say was just, nothing is impossible and success is no where IF you ever will listen to advises and always remind yourself to do the right things. it doesn't make sense of blaming the God, your relatives nor your parents of giving too much of restriction for you or 'directed' you to the wrong way, you can make your own decision, if you don't like the suggestion given by others! well, i just hoping that you will change your attitude some days in the future, who knows what's gonna happen in the next seconds??

IT WAS 2013

well, it had come to a new year and one week is past, again, back to the normal school life. so as most of the students' feeling, all of us still in the sweet~ nice~ amazing~ fantastic~ and every nice word you can think of to describe the lovely holiday. pretty hurt to get of my "smelly" bed on the first day of school ( seriously no idea why is the bed so soft and comfortable on that school morning. so, there's lot of things to work hard throughout this year as i am facing the "DEAR" SPM in the second week of november. why will i know the date?? because my good bm tuition teacher had did a count down for our SPM just now in the tuition. well, tx her for the calculation of weeks we have left before sitting in the hall for our exam.

for all the form 5 and form 3 friends and students, all the best for your study in this year, make yourself busy with your homework and planned a good timetable for your. for myself, of course i hope that i can concentrate on my study lo~~